TO BE OR NOT TO BE- is phrased by Shakespeare in one of his
plays-Hamlet. The everyday line for day to day life series is TO DO OR NOT TO
DO. The duality of the mind, the
flip-flops of thoughts, the space between the doing and the undoing seems to
have captured the souls of every individual.
We are usually caught up in-between actions, words, gestures
either with oneself or another. Human beings are social animals but are still
animals in our own ways. We love to
please all and want to be in good books of all expect one IMPORTANT PERSON- Own
self.
This is the first step of conflict. A conflict with oneself.
The conflict of the outward self with the inward self. It is a pull and push mechanism. The inner
self wants to push the outward self in loving oneself and the outward self is
pulling away from listening to it.
We resent ourselves from listening to our inner self. We
fail to act its way. The reason could be, because we know it does not
manipulate or lie. It shows your naked self to you right on the face. Just like
the mirror. You are as you appear without any makeup. That is scary and at
times ugly to bear.
It amazes me to think, how in a tiff of a moment we take a drastic
step and at times we take more than the required time to make a decision. We
are so caught up with this inner mild turmoil day in and day out that we miss
on all the small pleasures of life. We don’t express freely or love at our free
will. We don’t do anything that truly belongs to us and will make us happy or
give us the peace that we look for.
We are not released from our misery. We get into a conflict,
may be at times listen to ourselves, most of the times make a pact with oneself
and move on. One done...another conflict
starts and the cycle repeats. There is
no end to it.
At times we name this conflict an intuition and ignore and
at times we think of the consequence and stop listening to our inner self and
the conflict builds up. We are very good in making excuses and blaming the
outer environment and situations in our lives and get into this situation. This
in turn builds up our stress and we are already taking the downward path.
We live most of our lives n this built up conflict fighting
it and looking for a path breaker. Something that we can tear off and come out
of it. Just like a character tearing up the poster and emerging out of it.
Why don’t we get out of it? Why don’t we put a stop to it?
Live devoid of it? Do we enjoy its complexity? Or is it too carefree and simple
to live without it? Or do we fear of ourselves and life less interesting
without it? Or is it that we have lost the serenity of happiness. We have lost
the trait of peacefulness and calmness and know it is an effort by itself to
get these traits back.
Does conflict seem a better bargain than these? It is a less
path travelled and an easier one? We convince ourselves and believe and over a
period of time accept this conflicted live and get used to living this way.
THINK OUT LOUD.....TALK TO YOURSELF..GET THE ANSWER
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